so yeh. im kinda proud of myself, like, its been sooooo long since i’ve harmed myself. AND im getting better at overcoming the pain that goes through my head. I can say ive been in a mood where i really wanted just to not be but i just sleep it off then go gym or eat or just something that will make me …. chill ? lol. idk. Its been a tough year but its getting easier.
So yeh. I wanna do something great with my life. I wanna make my life mean something! And i think its almost time to do so. There was one person that just believed in me with everything i did, and i frikken love this mofo. I would be nothing without him. I probably wouldn’t even be here if he werent. but yeh. he makes me happy.
“Don’t be afraid to achieve greatness” i love you john. The one person i can give up everything and not even have a second thought about it.
Oh. Get out of my mind! its just taking over and its stressing -.- GET OUTTTTT
Kay. I love my cluster. sooooooo much. They were just so mission ready this weekend and it was super duper awesome. This weekend touched my heart and made me happy, it’s been awhile since ive felt this joy. Roger is a happy man.
- me: i like that
- me: *looks at price tag*
- me: i don't like that anymore